I will post about Michael's transplant evaluation as soon as I can put my thoughts and emotions into words. It was a hard 3 days and I am just not quite ready to talk about it as I am still processing all the information we received. So for now, here is an observation I made while in Pittsburgh that made me proud to hold the title "Mom".
WOW. I learned so much in Pittsburgh at the Children's hospital. I saw so many children in so many different levels of disability/special needs and I was in awe. It amazes me that God has made so many special children but that is not what I was in awe of. I was in awe of all those mothers tending to their disabled/special needs children and not thinking a thing about it. Whether it was a mother pushing her bald daughter's IV pole that held chemo drugs, a mom carrying a little girl with leg braces, cotton candy pink glasses, pig tails and the brightest smile on her face or the mom who was pushing her son in a wheelchair. It made me realize that we, as mothers, are some pretty resilient people. We expect, hope, pray, and assume we will have a healthy, "normal" child when we are pregnant but life doesn't always work out that way. We pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and carry on with the new life we have been handed. I am not putting dads down, I am only speaking to motherhood because that is all I can personally attest to. I think every child has "special needs" whether it be extra help learning something new or just someone to love them. I don't really agree with the term special needs. I don't think my childrens needs are any more special than your childrens but I do know one thing, children with needs require special mothers! So if you are a mother (in any form) give yourself a pat on the back and know that you are doing a good job even if it's just doing the best you can at that moment. In closing, I will leave you with a verse that has hit home with me these past few days..."Even youths grow tired and weary...but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength." Isaiah 40:30-31